Pressing On

There can be great wisdom in letting something go entirely. I mean just releasing it instantly to the Lord as soon as you hear about it so it has absolutely no impact upon what you are doing. It has taken me a lot of years to embrace that as the path to freedom that it really is.

There have been no shortage of people in my life who have tried to sentence me to be a failure either by their own desire to see me come to ruin or to somehow justify their dislike of me personally but regardless of their motive, significant efforts have been leveled against my wife and I to derail and destroy our personal lives and ministries. After walking through roughly 20 years of this, I have two words for the haters...thank you.

See, Psalm 23 says the Lord prepares a table in the presence of your enemies. When God is starting to do something in the way of restoration or provision, it is very likely he will first put you in the presence of your enemies. After all, that is where God has set up the table to feed you from. I'm not suggesting that he wants you to gloat, but I am suggesting that you need to come to a place where you are comfortable with your enemies incompetence being exposed. The call to love your enemies is not a call to protect their incompetence or underhanded dealings.

I turn 46 in a few days and I am firming up on my commitment to walk in the Kingdom based reality of who I really am and not let the haters define me, I mean not even a little bit. I have turned a corner with the new year. Maybe it was the handful of insecure church leaders over the years who brought so much false accusation that even the demons they unknowingly served were confused. Maybe it was the people saying they wanted to know the real me when in reality they just wanted me to use my gifts and talents for their personal gain or enjoyment.  Maybe it was the way that my adoptive family who raised me would never open up and let me in to the deeper inner workings of said family or maybe it was finally meeting my birth mother last year and learning more about my actual earthly origins... or maybe it was just a combination of all of that and much more.

All I know today is that the battle for life in the battle for personal identity. Every sin is a direct result of you not knowing or understanding who you really are. With identity comes understanding of proper entitlement and expectation. When you begin to see that your life is usually a collection of what you have tolerated instead of goals you have set and accomplished, everything changes for the better.  New ideas and goals come to bear and with them  the firm commitment to embrace who you really are...and with that comes a disdain for Self Pity and Self Hatred...and with that comes a fresh commitment to back out of relationships that are unhealthy and to prioritize relationships that are centered around your goals and identity. 

Lastly, I apologize for not updating the blog here for a few weeks. I'm going to try and do that more often here in 2016!  :)

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