for those like me who have been blacklisted by the modern church, take heart. One of the reasons Jesus was so overwhelming to the church leaders of His day was because He was bypassing them entirely. The church leaders needed people to NOT have a close, personal relationship with God for themselves because that made those same leaders irrelevant. Their money, their fame and their power would be gone if Jesus really was the Messiah... and that is why they tried to slander, belittle and even kill Him. The more miracles He preformed, the more people believed He was the Messiah and thus the more people unplugged from those leaders making them more and more desperate as time went on, even to the point of justifying murder.
Prophets do the same thing to religious leaders today.
Seasoned prophetic people move powerfully in such a way that it draws people into a closer personal relationship with Jesus for themselves. That threatens the modern church leadership who count on believers NOT having the close of a relationship with God for themselves. They need you to not know what God is saying directly so you will come to them to hear.
For YEARS I could never understand why the local church celebrated me with my prophetic gifting for a season but would then always turn on me, slander me, assassinate my character and run me off. I now understand it is because I am dangerous to them. If people actually listen and apply the prophetic word of the Lord, they will draw in close to God's Presence for themselves and so anyone (not just me) who is anointed to open that door for others is automatically blacklisted once that is discovered.
Of course, most believers are quite content in letting "Moses" (their Pastor) go to the mountain of God and bring down the bread to them once a week. Its operating under the Old Covenant with the Lord but hey, it's easier to let someone else do it. Taking real spiritual dominion and authority is a life changer after all and just plugging into the religious system where church attendance replaces real relationship with God is so much easier
See, Judas and John had the same mentor. They had the same Master. They had the same opportunities. The difference was that Judas had been AROUND Jesus... but John had been WITH Jesus. So it is today... most modern believers go to church and are AROUND Jesus.. but then their are a few, a small handful who have been WITH Jesus. The strain of the religious system caused Judas to kill himself. The anointing on John was so deep and intense that they tried to murder him multiple times and he simply would not die. In fact the anointing on John is SO strong that he ends up being banished but in that exile he receives a special and intense extra Revelation of Jesus that we now know as the Book of Revelation.
Here's another little nugget... when Mary found the empty tomb, she went and told the others. Peter and John raced to the tomb and John got there first BUT he did not go in. This is significant because to John there was no reason to go in. In John's heart he already knew that Jesus was going to rise from the dead as He said. Peter ran with cautious uncertainty not knowing what he would find which is why Peter went INTO the tomb... but John ran with Joy knowing exactly what has already taken place.
To be clear, I am not "anti church". I believe the church is supposed to be like a school. A place of learning, impartation, a gathering place. It should be a safe place of refuge where everyone is welcome... but within that, when a church (or a church leader) tries to put itself between you and God, that is heresy and you are placing yourself back under the Old Covenant. Be like John... be WITH Jesus for yourself. It will unlock your greatest life potential.
Write something about yourself. No need to be fancy, just an overview.