Happy Mother's Day

Roughly 45 years ago a young woman with her entire life before her suddenly found herself pregnant. She had the option to sneak out and quietly abort the baby but learning it was a son she decided to have the boy knowing that she would never see him again after he was born. She selflessly carried him for 9 months and tearfully gave him away in a day she will never forget as long as she lives.

This woman (who today would most likely be in her mid 60s) over four decades ago made an extraordinarily difficult choice to carry and not abort her baby. That same woman gave birth to me in January of 1970 and even though I have never again heard her beautiful voice or looked into her eyes since that day, I have been humbled by her beautiful seed of selflessness to have her own life completely interrupted, to carry me to term and deliver me knowing she would only be left with that memory and any accomplishment I gained or difference i would have made in the earth would never be credited back to her or my birth father in any way.

The sting of Rejection is always a lie as no one knows another person's heart or what someone else was or is going thru. Abandonment seems so cold on the surface but as I now look into the eyes of my own boys, I see love in her actions from 45 years ago. I now understand the deep and driving parental love that would push any parent to make any sacrifice including stepping away forever if the situation truly required it. It also reveals better the incredible heart of the loving Father in Heaven who gave His only son so that any of us could be saved today.

In my youth I saw her actions as selfish and hateful. The decades that have passed have revealed that I was seeing thru the lens of my own pain and hurt. As the Holy Spirit has nursed me into deeper healing I better understand the deep intensity of it all was for my own personal destiny for I would not be where, what or who I am today without her unselfish acts, of which I had absolutely no control.

My parents who raised me did an incredible job of loving me as their own and indeed the very best they knew to do.  They laid within me incredible moral and biblical foundation that in many ways is the bedrock that God has used to build me into the man I am today, To them I of course show honor, love and respect all the days of their lives that remain... but for those wonderful women who have made similar sacrifices, I don't have to tell you that you will never forget.  Not a single day goes by without the curious thought and eternal hope that your son or daughter is doing well and happy.  

On behalf of every abandon son and daughter of my generation, mom, I absolutely love and forgive you.  

To the other abandon sons and daughters who stand with me, one attribute of God is called "The Spirit Of Adoption" and your heart can indeed be restored and completely healed. You absolutely can learn to forgive what cannot be undone!

To my birth mother, wherever she may be today, please know in my heart I will always remember your life giving choice to do the right thing and while countless leaders, mentors and others have had a hand in my ongoing development, it all started with your selfless act of bravely letting me go.  I love you, and Happy Mother's Day! 

Mark

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