I'm not sure when it happened but at some point in my life I went from enjoying and expecting to be in full time ministry within the modern church to no longer even wanting to be associated with most of what is considered modern Christianity.
Looking back now I feel like very few people were really honest with me as a little child and into my teen years about matters of the Faith in general. Maybe the folks I was around didn't understand it themselves, maybe they didn't feel like I could handle the truth of it all, I don't know. What I do know is that slowly as the years have turned into decades, I have found my heart at odds with a cold organization that far too often places itself above the hearts of others.
Imagine with me for a moment if part of your job was to spot fraud inside of hospitals. You go in, look around at the books, interview people and then you discover some fraud so you report it. Then imagine the people who you reported for fraud turn around and tell everyone they know they you are anti-hospital and you actually don't want anyone to be able to go to a hospital at all. In fact, it is said of you that you are actively trying to destroy all modern hospitals. Sounds crazy doesn't it? But sadly, this is what happens to modern Prophets and Prophetesses all the time. They plug in, and by the nature of their callings they uncover unrighteous dealings with others. They then call it out and instead of a thank you from those in charge, they are often painted as the bad guy (or bad gal as the case may be) just because they brought it up.
Prophets are created in the womb to prize and value the Word of the Lord above everything else. By the nature of their personality they cannot stand willful deception or manipulation. It is this disdain that fuels their discernment and is usually why prophetic people can spot the fake far off before the rest of the body.
I've been put in the same position that a litany of other prophetic souls have been put in over recent years, that being the choice to sell out my conscience, calling and personal convictions to fit into the modern church mold or to remain true to the person of Jesus and remain estranged from the modern church which increasingly drifts farther and farther away from its founder's heart and intentioned purposes for a variety of reasons, not the least of which being that they elevate people claiming to be prophets that by the biblical standard are not.
As I enter into private times of Praise and Worship, my heart burns for those I know and others I have yet to meet. The desire to see people truly healed and delivered is something that I cannot escape and believe me, I have tried just as many of you reading this have. My heart is humble before the Lord and that is why the anointing on my life for Healing remains pronounced and stronger than ever before... but like Jesus my lover before me, I don't really extend large amounts of mercy to those who try to trick or "expose" me.
So the question becomes "Where do we go from here?"
I still take invitation to minister everywhere from home groups to larger gatherings because my heart and goal is still to minister in the power of the Spirit and see people's hearts and lives truly changed...and that always happens when i am allowed to flow freely in a meeting of any size. I will still oversee our Internet ministries where tens of thousands a month tune in and enjoy our stations and special streaming offerings.
Please join me in praying about doing some live meetings where I partner with some like minded prophetic souls to minister and make a real difference in people's lives without the inbuilt commercial for blind allegiance to a given church. I don't care of people identify as Baptists, Catholics, or Charismatics. I don't care of people identify as homosexuals, atheists or even (wait for it... ) one of those dreaded Internet bloggers. :o :o :o All i know is that Jesus died for EVERYONE and anyone who asks me for ministry with an honest heart to receive is going to get it, even if the modern church has declared them no good or to be shunned/avoided.
Bring me everyone who has been wounded and hurt by the modern church because I want to see them HEALED... not so they can go back to the same place that wounded them... but so they can be released into their true identity and in many cases released into their own healing based ministry.
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