The Older I Get

I have now aged thru this world for 45 years as of today. I did my best to not mention my birthday to too many folks including the big group of thousands who stay up with me on Facebook, Twitter, Instagram and now TSU. I just wasn't up for thousands of Happy Birthday wishes from people who were following a prompt from digital media instead of people honestly knowing that it was my birthday because they were close enough in my life to know that.

That being said, I have a lot of thoughts going thru my mind as my biological clock ticks past 16,345 days. 

As I look back over my life I don't have many regrets but one of them is not being more kind and gentle to others. I'm a Prophet so my personality is strong out of the womb and my desire to uphold the truth (or at least the truth as I perceived it at that time) has gotten me into many situations over the years that probably could have been better handled with more gentleness and overall wisdom.

The older I get the more I value my personal time.  There is a saying in the business community that proves to be very true... I've never met a successful person who didn't value their own time and I've never met a poor person who did.  The battle of this life is indeed the battle for your time. Think about it... everyone wants your time. The science behind all advertising and marketing for example is not how to get you to spend money, its to get you to care about what is being marketed to you. Companies know if you start to care about something, you will spend money on whatever that is to either get it or keep it in your life.  The easiest way to do this is by repeatedly exposing you to their advertising and marketing campaigns.  This has the compounded effect of eating up your time so in a very real way, all advertising and marketing comes back to getting a given message across in the allotted time. 

As I look toward the future, I am very excited about what is ahead. I have lost almost half of my body weight starting a few years ago at 500 pounds. I have also gotten very healthy and active and am feeling better than ever before. In many ways I feel like I'm in my 20s again and since health is such an important part of life's journey, I am a very blessed man in that to be sure.  

Thru much of my life I have played a supporting role in the lives and ministries of others. For the last couple of years and especially in recent months, I've been feeling the finger of the Lord in my back to step forward more and launch into doing some live worship and ministry meetings of my own so I'm starting to take some steps to prepare for that.

Lastly, every birthday I think about the fact that I was given up for adoption at the age of three days. That means in 1969 a couple from the Ohio State University got pregnant with me and decided it was best to give me up to someone else.  All I know about them is that she was a cheerleader and he was on the football team. Photo archives of those years are not easy to find.  I still debate on trying to track them down or not.

Of course, adoption itself is a giant red flag for a Spirit of Rejection and I absolutely had one that drove me to almost destroy myself. Thankfully the Holy Spirit delivered me using a beautifully anointed couple that are now great friends in our lives. 

I may never lay eyes on the ones who gave me mine. I may never be held by the ones who held each other to conceive me. I may never hear the voices of the ones who spoke about me and possibly to me for the better part of a year in my gestation. But the broken, when healed, become master menders themselves. These things that appeared in my youth to be deficits have been used by the Holy Spirit to create strength and commitment in me today. What the enemy tried to use to destroy me, Jesus has used to resurrect me...

I see it now.. and I will never be the same.

More soon

M-

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