One of the biggest blind spots that most Christians struggle with is the sovereignty of God and what that really means. People say it all the time.. "God is in control".. and He is in control in an ultimate sort of way but that divine sovereignty and our free will are not mutually exclusive. In fact, the both coexist in a very Godly and marvelous way.
The WILL of God is that none should perish, yet people still go to Hell every day. The desire of God is to bless and prosper you even as your soul prospers, yet plenty of people are not prospering today. The heart of God is revealed in that He loves everyone, but many do not feel loved by God. I could go on and on but the point is that in this earth realm, God has given His dominion to US as humans. So now WE HUMANS have the dominion in the earth. (Gen 1:26, 27). This is why Jesus had to come in human form.. God in Spirit form could not save the people of the earth, only God in human form could do that because only a human has authority in the earth.
Paul says its no longer I that lives but Christ that lives in me. I'm not walking around waiting for Jesus to show up in a given place or a given situation... I know wherever I am, there He is too because even down to the genetic level, He is now alive in me and I am only alive in Him so where I am, He is naturally there as well.. UNLESS I choose to deny His leading and pacify my flesh. When I do that, He is still alive in me but He is not manifesting through me any longer.
The devil wants you to hate yourself. He wants you to see yourself as a little speck completely irrelevant and worthless. He propagates that thru a lie of omission in telling you that God is in control of everything... after all, if God is truly in control of everything, we and our choices become irrelevant and not needed. Jesus died BECAUSE we are of great value to Him... not because we are not needed.
You DO matter, you DO have a plan for your life and ONLY YOU can fulfill that plan in just the way that you can. God did not make a mistake in giving you a free will. His heart is pleasured when we choose to bring ourselves into agreement with His divine sovereignty.
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